Blessed.

I've had many of the same best friends for a long time now. Some since middle school, others since the beginning of elementary school at good old Waky. Before entering high school so many people warned me that my group of friends would soon go their separates ways and that we'd move on and make new friends. It's true..we've met new people, and we've have different experiences, and we've gone different places. But, the truth is..my heart feels most happy and my self feels most complete when I am with my best friends; the ones that have been there for so many years now. My best friends have seen me through the hardest times in my life, and have rejoiced with me in the happiest. We've come together in the midst of tragedy and we've leaned on each other when not strong enough to stand on our own. My best friends are fiercely loving and intensely supportive. Tonight, as we baked and ate and decorated and posed and talked and laughed together, I was reminded of just how blessed I am to have these women in my life..they have played such a huge role. I love them with every bit of my heart.

In light of recent circumstances.

Sometimes I just want to say to God, "Hold on..give me a break..I can't handle this right now."

But, then, I think he'd just say..

"Who are you to tell me what to do? Who are you to tell me that you 'can't handle this'? Did I not form you? Do I not know everything about you? Have I not secured your future? Do I not know the plans that I have for you? All that you need to worry about, my dear daughter, is letting go and giving me control..and trusting that I'm never going to let you go."

Amen.